Feeling Blue

I don't know how to start this. But one thing for sure, the past two weeks wasn't my week at all.
All my anger, sadness, and loneliness, were mixed up and create a point where I think I would fall. I felt that the dark side inside my soul was getting stronger and darker.
But somehow I didn't fall. I keep standing, cos I don't give up that easily.

I remember a line/quote from The Dark Night, Batman to Harvey Dent. "He wanted to prove that even someone as good as you could fall."
I don't want to give anyone the satisfaction of seeing me fall. I keep thinking that the harder they want to see me fall, means the better I am - than them.

But again, I don't know how long I can stand, especially the only one who I care about (and the one who always give me energy and support, even though she doesn't realize it) seems to fade away. I will never stop trying to reach her back, will never stop to understand her, will never get tired praying for her best, will never stop to be there for her, even she's fading away. I will always try my best for her, as long as I can.

My health was also a problem. Sickness kept come and gone. Doesn't mean I didn't take care of my self, it's just an awful week(s) for me so its affecting my health too.

But tomorrow is a new day. I hope everything will be better. And hope I will always have a reason to keep standing through these stormy seas.
Until we meet again.. God bless you all.

A Really Bad Day

Well, today is (another) bad day for me. But I won't write why is it bad here, cos sometimes expressing your feelings on internet/blog like this could lead to some new problems.
It just feels some people don't respect me at all,and something bad keeps coming after another, I also feel like I gave someone else some of my bad luck. And because of that, I feel even worse.
I know I have some good friends to share with, but.. Arrgghh...I just wanna scream out loud now.
Hell..I have loads of thoughts to write, and I'm struggling whether I write them down or not, but I think I'll just keep it with me for now.
I'm just hoping everything will be fine by tomorrow (or maybe tomorrow will be worse)

ps: just writing this short took me almost an hour to decide (actually to edit) what I'm going to write.

Be Mine

Alone in a cold, dark night.
Waiting for the sun shines bright.

Looking for a better tomorrow.
With you standing on the same row.

It is so clear now.
I fall in love somehow.

I will complete you in my own way.
Keep you smiling every single day.

And I will always by your side.
To put your dark things aside.

So, come along with me.
And I promise, happy you will be.

You Are Mine

Because of you,
I can stand still today.
And only for you,
I want to live another day.

Now I say this to you,
To prove my love is true.

I will stand before God,
When we both will be one.
I will promise you I’ll be true.

I will be here and now,
Let we both take this vow.
I am so in love with you.

I’ll never know,
How I survive without you.
That’s why I want,
To always be with you.

Now I stand before God,
And I know you were mine.
I am so in love with you.

Inginku

Indah dunia seakan tak berarti,
Tanpa diri mu untuk berbagi.
Hari-hari ku terasa tak berseri,
Tanpa kamu untuk ku cintai.

Ingin ku peluk kau tanpa henti,
Sampai ku tak mampu memeluk lagi.
Ku ingin slalu ucapkan slamat pagi,
Sampai ku tak dapat menatap mentari.

Ku hanya ingin kau di sini.
Temani jiwaku yang sepi.
Yang tlah lelah menangis ini,
Agar ku dapat tersenyum lagi.

Maafkan aku yang lagi mampu,
Tuk tepati semua janji-janji ku.
Karena aku telah kecewakan mu,
Membuat mu jauh dari ku.

Kini tunjuklah satu bintang,
Di langit malam yang bersinar terang.
Karena di sana ku kan tetap berada,
Tuk temani mu sepanjang masa.

Cinta

Cinta..
Datang di saat tak terduga.
Saat ku butuhkan asa,
Disitulah kau berada.

Cinta..
Takkan pernah salah.
Walau berbeda budaya,
Cinta kan satukan kita.

Cinta..
Satu hal yang ku percaya.
Cinta ku berasal dari Nya,
Karena itu takkan ku perdaya cinta.

Cinta..
Tak selalu dapat bersama.
Namun bila kau sungguh mencinta,
Kisahmu takkan habis oleh masa.

Forgotten

Wow.. I've almost forgotten that I had this blog.. (haha..)
That's why I hadn't written anything except the introduction to my blog. :)
And today I just wanted to clear up the Internet histories in my laptop, including some of useless bookmarked pages, and voila! I've re-discovered my blog. :) so I guess I'll write a lil' bit now.
Starts with 2 ideas that I came up with for the world of wonder, the world of Card Magic.
But I'm not gonna write it down yet for I need to check and re-check, is that completely new effect (or maybe new variation), so I'll write them as soon as I found (or not) some information about them. I'm pretty excited about this cos I think I've invented something new (fingers crossed).
That's all for now, I guess. Maybe I'll re-write some of my poems/lyrics/just words, whatever you think they are. :)
OK, I'm off now..

Ho..Ho..Ho..

Welcome to the world of mine, my friend (or friends) or anyone who visits this silly blog. :)

I guess I need to introduce my self first before you read my silly stories or anything.
I'm Alex a.k.a Zero11. And I'm just a simple man who likes challenges and loads of interesting things. That's it.. :p

Why zer0theory? cos everything should start with an empty (zero) cup before you fill it with anything that you want to. And I got this somewhere (I kind of forgotten where did I get it. lol)
"ZERO..empty, yet holding infinite potential within itself. "
Its cool, isn't it? :) And the word 'theory'? Well, I couldn't come up with another name, so I picked up one of my favorite site's name "theory11.com" :)

So, this blog will mostly be about me, what I have in mind, what I'm doing, what I feel, and maybe sometimes I will write something general, I'm not really sure for now.. Haha..
Hope you guys like this blog. See y'all..